Step 2: Forget about step 1 and make as many mistakes as early as possible. (not on purpose though)
Step 3: Forget step 1 and 2 and go directly to step 47.....
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Step 47: Make yourself happy Adrian,....
For years I have pondered what the equation was to be exactly that, happy, satisfied, um....content. But for once I can find myself okay with not being satisfied, only because tomorrow's adventures prove more exciting. I can be okay with not being content, only because I am constantly surprised with a new level of being. I however, will never be okay without being happy, truly happy.
It's been a while loyal fans, and while I know your still ringing for the next forum I wanted to post here something that's been on my mind. And that is the exact moment the mind goes blank.....I find myself without the single ounce of strength to type what I mean, to reach out and take whats needed. I press on however....
The last couple of weeks have proven a test, (hope to pass), a test of stability and how willing I am to treat myself to whats been deprived for so long. A person to care
Dead ends sometimes prove to be the only way out, a brick wall and the people that want your blood on your heels, a path that seems smart at first leads you astray, but the inability to quit on what you believe on gives you freedom, a new lease on life.
I'm telling you this to possibly get through to the person you used to be, or the potential person you could. Remember your dreams,... thoughts of rising above society's woes, looking down on the streets of those waiting to join you. But what you thought lost is here again, knocking and waiting in the cold of night, and you have the hearth, the fire that warms even the impossible.
Stop there.........your heart beats just as it once did......listen......and close yours eyes
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